I have no clue what I'm doing

     I used to live in paralyzing fear. I always did what was asked of me. I always wanted to be viewed as kind, so I bent of backwards to make sure I was. I kept quiet when people told me my voice was no good. I sat in silence when I was told my opinions didn't matter. I wore little to no makeup and plain colors when they said I shouldn't draw attention to myself. I made this mask that I thought the world wanted to see. I thought they would think it was beautiful. But, the truth of the matter is, no matter how much I adorned that mask, it was never good enough. I was never good enough because I was placing my worth on doing a perfect job, and perfect is unattainable. So, even when I did find outlets to express myself, like music and art, it never felt like I was good enough. It felt like I never would be either. 

     One day I decided that mask was too heavy to wear anymore. My neck was breaking, my lungs were collapsing, and I could never measure up. I started wearing a lot of makeup because I found out it was an outlet for me, and so much fun. I started wearing neon colors because they brought me joy. I started studying about the art of tattooing because I found it fascinating. Then, I decided to pursue a dream that I had in high school, but thought I left behind. I decided to pursue my dream of being a professional singer. I felt like a crazy person and had NO clue where to start. So, I did the only thing I could think of. I auditioned for The Voice. Yep, this shy girl transformed into this huge risk taker to go after her passions. 

     So, I was standing there, on the edge of the cliff, dream in hand and ready to jump. The only problem is, I had NO IDEA what I was doing. I knew nothing about business, contract negotiations, booking gigs, licensing, speaking or anything else I needed to know to even begin. I hardly knew how to do social media, let alone start creating content and get in front of a camera or set up a website. But, I was going for it anyways. Piece by piece, I figured out how to build a brand and market, a deeper sense of who I was and how to work out my insecurities and be confident, Now I help people overcome shyness whether it be in front of the camera, on stage, or just day to day life. I help people figure why they have this dream and how to navigate through it. I help people figure out who they are, so that when adversary comes against their dreams, and people make negative comments, they can stand tall know they are enough and worth it, instead of carrying those negative comments on their back. I've spent over a decade working on my personal growth with coaches, counselors and other resources. I've spent the last 4 years building a brand and learning how to put out content.  This is how I know I can help anyone reach their dreams who wants it. Also, if I encounter someone who is out of my area of expertise, I have connection I trust to be able to direct them to. Anyone who really wants to work on them selves, anyone who wants to reach their dreams CAN... If they are willing to put in the work. Does this sound like you?

     I know if you're reading this blog, you have a big dream and you're willing to take risks. I know one day, I will see you living out those dreams, and I'm super excited to watch your journey unfold! You got this!

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